Kat and Katie came to visit today, hang out with all their Kelowna friends.... we decided to do a big group dinner at my place.

Its so weird, being around her again. Puts knots in my stomach. Whether I like it or not, I still love her, and year-old wounds are very much still causing pain.

I wish that things were easy. I wish that time healed things, like the sayings say. But they haven't.

Maybe I'm not ready to date after all. Maybe as great of a girl as Amanda is, I'm still just too wounded to be really in love or dedicated to anybody.