It's the eve of old years night. Oh yea! Needless to say that I've got nothing planned for tomorrow other then stay home with my folks, which is alright in itself but I really wanted to go out somewhere and have a little fun. It's alright though, I'm staying in with the family ( so basiaclly by myself )I guess I ought to have a shot of whiskey for the old year to remember friends past and present. And perhaps another one to start the new year out right eh? so that's two, two shots ah ha ha ha ha ha. All of a sudden I feel like the count off of sesame street. Though I suspect he never counted alcohol though I could be wrong. I don't know, maybe I'd make a good count, get me a monocle and a cape and I'll count until the cows come home. Which reminds me of halloween. I always did have trouble of what to be for halloween. Maybe I could go as him... This year halloween was awfully warm, I remember the halloween of 2002, if started to rain ice - I was giving out candy and I had to take cover under my garage and behind a tree. It was nuts. But yes, that doesn't matter anymore so I'll just shut up now. Bloody hell why is it that girls have to be so competitive and agressive and argumentitive and all that great stuff? One of my flippin' friends is mad at my semi-girlfriend for talking "ish" and consequently she's mad at me too. I hate it when you're automatically assumed to be a living pair, like I can dictate her actions 24/7. Don't worry, I know not all of you lovely females out there are like that and if that be the case - I give you kudos; you're better then my friend and semi-girlfriend combined. It's times like these I wonder why in blazes I'm still around here. I just want to take a break and leave it all behind me, just... poof. Maybe take a few select friends and a lover along with me and that's it - leave the rest of the world behind. I know I wouldn't be able to though, I'd miss my mother's cooking way too much. Have I told you about her cooking? I think I already did so I'm not going to talk about that again. I don't know I'm just so fustrated right now. I need a drink. My dad's bitching and al of a sudden I wish I had gone to that party even though I know I would have end up doing something I would have regreted... but I can't be like that... to many people depending on me to do the right flippin' thing. I wish I could talk to Caroline right now, she'd make me feel a lot better. *gets up and walks away from computer*