Blast, Had an awesome intro paragraph and then I lost it all... story of my life eh? Well I'm coming to you live and uneditted... well, live anyway from my house where I am merely sitting here not doing alot. Ain't it grand? I'm just sitting and talking to people. Ever get the people that you haven't talked to in months, or even on a daily basis and every single time you talk to them you end up deep in conversation? You know, the kind of people who you're friends with but don't tlak to them often. Yea, I had one of those a few days ago. Great girl, not totally my type because she's way too good, but still - there's a lot more to her than she puts out there and somehow she's under the impression that I seem to dig past through all of that. Crazy girl. Oh well, what else was there in my intro para? I can't recall so I'll just go unto something totally different. So how is everyone doing tonight? I just got back form dinner and I'm somwhat full. But that's alright, would you like to know why? because Hockey Night in Canada is on. That's right, early playoff action. Montreal V. Boston. Right now boston is winning but as for te whole series... well, I'm not sure that they'll have enough steam to beat the habs. Canadiens have to work on capitalizing on the penatlies but other then that it should be "interesting" as they say. So enough of this hockey talk because I know many of you out there aren't that interested. In other news, I got my test results back today from that Math test I did the other day... horrible. Absolutely horrible.. 76, what was I thinking? Stupid careless mistakes as always. I know my stuff, hell I cn teach it to class. I guess I just buckled for some unknown reason. I can just see the mark in that class going *approaching whistle* yea. Well, at least I didnt fail it like some people did, but still; I gotta watch that. Oh well, something else bummed me out today too; fourth period. I don't know -I just wasn't feeling like myself. I just spaced out. Earlier today I was talking to someone and I got into something about Life merely being the business of death and even though you do grow, growth in itself is merely a process of dying. Every day, hour- minute is just another notch under the belt so to speak. She didn't take to that well - thought it was too pessimistic but personally I don't think htat it was pessimistic... I don't think I'm a pessimist but some of you do. it's not too day I guess, it's all about perspective. But enough about that... I'm not too sure where to go from here... I just... somethings are going on in this crazy mind of mine. I wish I could put it all into words but I'm struggling with this roughly. Slightly due to what's going on with the special girl I'm considering... partially because I've got some projects/ assignments on my mind, worried that it won't pull together... I don't know - pulling it together and request some assitance from any avaliable reineforcements. I'm out of here to draw up the papers. Take care. Truly, -Captain B. Realist