Watching the stars on the big screen Then he lies awake and he wonders, Why can’t that be me Cause in his life he is filled With all these good intentions He’s left a lot of things He’d rather not mention right now But just before he says goodnight, He looks up with a little smile at me, And he says, If I could be like that, I would give anything Just to live one day, in those shoes If I could be like that, I would give anything Just to live one day, in those shoes If I could be like that, what would I do, What would I do And you can't say that this is a breach of our last contract because it's not the whole song or anything - it's just the first verse and the first chorus so it's all good/safe. I don't know; I just felt like putting it on. It's something that happens every march break since I started high school. This song's has... well, aside from being in American Pie 2 @ the end, it has the ability if always reminding me of the things that I didn't do, and as a direct result, ended up wishing the chorus about a friend. Lucky kid, though I know he wasn't always happy with the arrangment. Kind of breaks one of my rules. I've always said that I'll never envy anyone because you don't know what they sacrificed or had to do to get what they have, to get to where they are. I mean, for all you know, somewhere along the line they may have had to have compromised, and that's something that they have to live with for the rest of thir lives.Mind you he didn't have to do any of that; I know that for a fact, but while all of this was going on, I had to throw over eight months away; but that's not what this is about, this is about something much more general; general indeed.So what I was getting at is that I really don't think that any of you should be envious of anyone else - ever. I'm not your parents nor am I, by any strectch of the imagination, a good role model, but honestly, the time that you spend moping (that's mope-ing, not mop-ing) you cold use to get what it is that you want. Don't be a fool. But seriously though, while you're feeling under privilaged or wanting of what some else has obtained, somebody is envious of you, and your current position. I think because the saying "The grass is always greener on the other side" was so over-used that it's lost total meaning in today's society. That's why I didnt use it as the title. Getting back to what I was saying though - I know for a fact that this whole envious cycle is just that, a cycle. And that's because humans are just never totally content. Sure you say you are, or even worse - you've convinced yourself that you are (which sometimes be good enough) but are you really? The answer is no. There's always something that you could have done differently, of there's something going on that you're not feeling totally confident about. And so regarding that situation, youmay wish you were like someone else, or in their shoes, but trust me, you never fully understand a person until you walk a few miles in their shoes. It's the honest to goodness truth, and although I try to practice this and be grateful for what I've got... well, at times I'm not as successful as I ought to be. If that makes me a bad person (which it does in a sense) then so be it. I guess on a lighter note, I thikn that I have to do a whle essay over this march break for one of my courses, due the monday or wednesday when I get back. I suppose that it wasn't really a lighter note seeing as it's going to turn things into a drab, but you know what I'm getting at... merely trying to move myself away from all of the thoughts in my mind. Maybe I should just go and return later on when everyone else will have their entries up. But not just as yet. You know, there was more that I wanted to say, but for some reason I just can't get it into my mind. I was thinking about something last night before I went to bed - had to do with a song I was listening to at the time, I don't remember which one it was, but I do remember the cd (only because it was in my player when I woke up this morning, pathetic, I know.) I'm not even too sure why I'm bringing it up even, because I can't really discuss it if I don't remember it. Just leave it up to me to throw in something stupid to try and "lighten things up a little." Come to the Knight of Worries to find a humourous tone; not today kiddies... not today. Maybe tomorrow if I decide that a should wake up on the right side of the bed. Actually, I can't wake up on the right side of the bed, or else I'd be staring at a wall *ponders* I suppose the right side of the bed is, in actuality, the left side of the bed for me. Goes back to the old saying of "Left is right [correct] and right [direction] is wrong." I really got to stop using quotes as fillers - it really isn't cool. Holy unorganized batman. What were you thinking captain? Alright, so I am now going to leave and return later... maybe tomorrow. I'll try to get back on to comment on your stuff though. My apologies for wasting your time reading this dribble. You're not obligated to leave a comment for this because it isn't really of good quality. I'm off to email. So long friends; come again soon, -Captain B. Living a Day