Hello, How you doing? I'm alright but for some reason I'm too happy right now. Nothing's happened to make me happy; in fact my day was pretty boring. the only thing that's really good is that right now I'm drinking a "Jones soda." Pretty good flavour and I got a fortune (as with every soda.) Ironic because I picked the bottle and flavour on account of the picture on the cover (I even scanned it into my computer) but the fortune fits perfectly, it says "Time is the wisest counsellor." I thought that was quite fitting, but then again, what do I know? So, what else happened in my very boring day?(why am I asking you, I don't not know.) Ah yes, I lost a marble (literally) but then it appeared out of no where (don't ask.) I haven't check my emails as yet but I'm hoping that certain things will be in there... Maybe an acceptance note. Yea right, that'll be the day. The captain - accepted, ha! That's right, because people can read my mind and know what I want. I really shouldn't be so scared and "uptight" about this kind of stuff... But you only get one shot at this life thing and all I'm trying to do is keep things well and in order. But maybe I shouldn't be so scared, maybe I should just let things go and stop worrying about it. There's a lot of "shoulds" and "what if's" in life - I've learnt that much. I've also learnt many other things which are too numerous to mention but one of them which is applicable to my life is "Boy who do not do homework get bad mark." Almost like confucius' other saying "man who go to bed with itchy bum, wake up with smelly fingers." Hey, don't look at me - he said it. I've also learnt that you're learning is never done, which does contradict plato, but it's appears to be the truth (more or less.) Maybe I really shouldn't be myself on this one. But you wanna know what scares me? Want to know what bothers me the most; the kind of stuff that keeps me up at night. What scares me is that one day I'll wake up and realize that all of this - this self sacrifice, self indulgence; the over contemplation, the under contemplation; all of my actions and inactions - they were for nothing. That's what scares me, it scares me to think that the choices I am making will... are all wrong or have no meaning due to the fact that I should be deciding the other options. Not to say that what I'm doing is necessarily wrong but maybe it's just not as right as other choices I have in front of me. But enough about me, what is it that bothers you or scres you the most? I'm not looking for pet peeves or anything but I'll gladly accept those too. Oh, and if anyone out there is going to put, "what bothers me is when people talk about what bothers them," or anything else that indirectly refers to me you can save it because I know I'm a pain in the... side. I can't say that I totally know what's right or wrong and for some unknown reason people out there have faith in me and my logic. What were they drinking when they made me Captain? And to think, they almost promoted me to Commodore. Oh well - I can't dispute it, besides when you're that high in rank the dental plan is better. But as they say: It's lonely at the top. Problem is that I'm nowhere close to being at the top in real life so the question is why is it that I'm so god-damned lonely? At any rate, after you're done reading this, please move unto reading yesterdays entry which I placed under todays date because no one seems to read anything new if it's put under an old date (that is unless I date it witha different month and year.) At any rate, I better get going now - sometimes tells me I've overstayed my welcome. Affectionately yours, -Captain B. Hugs