So today' the official beginning of my holidays, though it may totally seem that way. My mother, for some reason can't seem to sit still for long enough. It's a wonder that her legs still work 'cause she's always moving, doing something or the other - such a busy-body. But that really isn't the topic of today. Actually, I was thinking about this all last night before I went to bed and for some reason it effected me, seriously, I mean it really got to me. It's been somewhat on my mind this whole day so I'm finally writing it down before it dissipates from the corners of my little mind. So I was laying in my bed last night, and for some reason I started to wonder what things would be like without someone. I won't say who the person is, or provide any personal details because it would only take away from what I'm getting at here, but for some reason I really started to think about this. I mean, what life would be like if this perosn died like, on the march break or something. I wasn't wishing it upon the person or anything, I was just... well, yea. And then, for the life of me I started to wonder how life would be effected if any one person was removed suddenly. And I'll put it to you like this - I came to a conclusion about how we form our lives. It goes something like this. Think of your life as a building. A building with a foundation, basement, first floor and floor all the way up to the twentieth. Now, each floor contains friends, family aquaintences etc. etc. who are, in essence, posts; the closer the person is in your life, the lower in the building they are. So your boyfriend or girlfriend may be on the basement, your parents the foundation, your best friends scattered between the foundation and first floor. Removing one of those people would be like blowing out a post, the lower in the building it is, the worse off the devestation. So if you were to lose one of your aquaintences who was a post on the eighteenth floor - not much is going to happen comparitively. Now if you were to suddenly lose one of your parents, well there goes the foundation and thus the whole building will rock and sway - it might even be closed off of a little while while it awaits repairs... could possibly lead to a tear down for sometimes they can't fix the foundation of a building. Anyone getting this at all? Alright, the point of me putting this in is that well, I noticed how in this 20 storey building - I've got a lot... a majortiy of people on the fifth floor or lower. Believe it or not, a good amount of you people here are somewhere on those same levels. I know you don't believe me, but it's the truth. That's not to say that before SitDiary I was nothing, but somehow... I can't explain it, some of you have worked yourselves deep into my life. I know it doesn't make sense but I guess I've allowed myself to become attatched... Doesn't make sense and you all think I'm nuts, I know. Just forget about this entry and read my last one which I revised last night and re-posted this morning. It's a lot more interesing, and Yesterdayschild - what you suggested is in there. Truly, -Captain B. Froot Loops Post Script- one last thing, the Song for today, it's really really good. Not so much the song or it's production as much as the lyrics. So Caroline, Blender & K-la - see if you can't get a hold of the lyrics; it's kind of my hope/wish for you three.