Hey everyone. Unfortnately I've only got less then a half hour to write this tonight on account of me being going out. Today I was just invited to a little shin-dig going on so I headed over to the mall after school to grab a little something for the birthday girl... I hope she likes it. And speaking of liking, I was in the store today and one of the girls who worked there kinda... well ya. I think I was feeling what she was getting at. I'll admit, she was cute; my type and all, but I don't think that right now to get involved in something like that would be best. Even if I could have gotten her number (which I know I couldn't) but let's say that I could, I don't know what I'd do with it. Crazy what the worlds like out there eh? When you're trying to get a girlfriend it's the hardest damn thing but when you just want to be single or stay involved with someone else that's when the temptations start arising. I sreiously think someone doesn't like me up there. Either that or this is repayment for all of the bad things I've done in my time. Actually, yea - probably the second option more then the first. Afterall, if 'God' didn't like me much things could be a whole lot worse, so maybe I shouldn't say that eh? Oh well. Man, tonight's going to be fun, interesting and educational. Time to shine while I save drunken fools from their fallen frisky fate. Oh yea. It's the Captain to the rescue. And what I find even tougher to deal with is some of my lady friends who've got so much bloody potential and they're doing crap like this... it just breaks my heart when I think about it and then I get so goddamned depressed. And I'm trying my best to keep 'em in line and everything; I was able to get one to just about quit smoking; in a few months I'm hoping that she'll be done with that and her friend is attempting to follow suit. Now that was one of the most rewarding things of 2003 - I felt so accomplished that it's not even funny. But now when I look on I get so damned depressed because I know what's going on and I can't stop it without ruining other things... A delicate balance must be maintained for things to keep working the way they are, or else it can all blow up in our faces. *BOOM* Like that. Oh the craziness. Well, I must be off, got to pack my utility belt for the night. Let's see: coffee, cold water, tylonal for hangover headaches, cologne/ perfume to cover the smell... I'm gone. Regards, -Captain B. Saving