"Near where I live there's a viaduct Where people jump when they're out of luck Raining down on the cars and trucks below They've put a net there to catch their fall Like it'll stop anyone at all What they don't know is when nature calls, you go..." That viaduct does exist. My dad and I use to drive under it four times a week when I was a child. They did put a net up to stop people from jumping because the bodies use to rain down on the cars and trucks below on the DVP. Surprisingly (or perhaps not) people actually stopped jumping... Now they use the subway to kill themselves. I hate to admit it, but this is going to be a short entry on account of the fact that I have four exams in five school days *woot woot!* As it clearly states above, I am feeling empty and despite the efforts of my brain I've yet to break it. So in response to this situation I did three things. First, and possibly more important, I fell in love with this song again (refer to current music). It's officially one of my favorites now. Second, I've decided to fight the feeling and not let it consume me like it has done in the past. Never ignoring it, but accepting it as a part of myself, experience it and then let it flow through. Third, I talked through some of it with one of my friends and we decided that I need to make some goals for the summer. Doesn't mean that all of them will actually happen, but what it does mean is that at least I'm trying and what's more *grins* is that it's a heirarchy: Directive 1: Shuffle friendships Directive 2: Save as much as possible Directive 3: Expand library by 10% Directive 4: Marginally improve health (without violating Directives 1&2) Directive 5: Volunteer when possible (without violating Directives 1-3) Directive 6: Take up Tai Chi, Fencing and/or Ballroom dancing (without violating Directives 1,2&4) Directive 7: Write a peice for a school newspaper (without violating Directives 1-4) I'm thinking that that should be enough to not only keep me busy, but help improve the over-all quality of life. Again, there's no guarantees that these'll happen. The first three'll be easy by my count while six and seven will take the most amount of time to both initiate and complete so nobody's holding their breath for them to happen, though admittedly it would be nice. I I'm going to leave you with the story of my life, as per a game I commandeered from a good friend of mine on facebook. I was suprised at how well it worked so I'll share it with you. If you're not particularly happy with this entry (which I know I'm not) go ahead and read my entry from March which is much more interesting and lacking hits. Forever fighting the war, - Captain B. Asleep in lukewarm bathwater. __________________________________________________________ How to do it: Open your library, Put it on Shuffle, Etc. 1) Opening Credits We Are going to be friends - The White Stripes 2) Waking Up Here's to the night - Eve6 3) First Day of School Why (part two) - Collective Soul 4) Getting Crunked Pianoman - Billy Joel 5) Falling in Love O Valencia - The Decemberists 6) Fight Song Death of a Martian - RHCP 7) Breaking Up Money Talks - ACDC 8) Life's Good Forgiveness - Collective Soul 9) Strip Tease Fun and games - BNL 10) Mental Breakdown Shine - Collective Soul 11) Driving Sitting, Waiting, Wishing - Jack Johnson 12) Flashback to Childhood Light up my room - BNL 13) Getting Back Together Oh Goddamnit - Hot Hot Heat 14) Wedding Hotel Yorba - The White Stripes 15) Sex Song If - RHCP 16) Final Battle All Apologies - Nirvana 17) Victory Dance The Wild Rover - The Dubliners 18) Death Scene Closing time - Semisonic 19) Funeral Song Boston and St. Johns - Great Big Sea 20) End Credits Give my love to rose - Johnny Cash