Ahoy there!! So much for being gone for two weeks eh? It's alright, I was able to sort some things out before the deadline, which is just as well because I have some thins that are starting up soon and I've got to have my head on straight... or at least semi-crooked in order to do well. Anyway, I haven't been sleeping much - again don't worry though, I look better than I feel so no one's the wisser and yet again it all stays deep down inside - somewhere. I can't say that I've had any major revalations; not that I've ever had any in the past. IT's more of the same reinforcing things that I know about myself and other people. Which has the potential to make a person feel really good about themselves. Afterall, knowing that you have the ability to summerize certain things can be ego-boosting. On the other hand, it can be mere reassurance that your mind is working well... Speaking of which, I've been doing a lot of writing lately. It's not like I mind it, it's just that the poetry is getting on my nerves. I'll put them up here just to amuse you... Laugh, snicker - whatever; at this point, I really don't care much. That Day Sometimes I look & see your face and it takes me to a better place. The sound of your voice, the touch of your skin, reminds me of how things used to have been. Your smiles and your laughter remind me of a time when we use to sit and rest play, lay, talk & rhyme Your hair, it glimmers in the light, and your eyes show me that i just might have a way into your life... But not by sword or gun nor knife Perhaps by love or words or charm; but into your life, I could bring harm. It doesn't make a difference, I might never have that chance because I must yield to the circumstance. Fighting Fate All of this anxiety is built up and stored inside of me- in my heart & in my mind there my feelings you will find I'm never too sure what to say but for any price, I would pay, to hold you close, to have you near; I'd give it all, for you my, dear. And yet t'day I sit and wait, to cross my blades with those of fate. To one day be at your side, To right the wrongs of things that died. So yea, that was written on Wednesday and Thursday; one a day. I think I'm averaging well... kinda. As long as you don't take it or steal it, I really don't care what you do with it. I'm feeling better today, in comparison to the other days and I guess that that's a good thing. But in all fairness, I should probably stop boring you with my feelings and poorly written poetry. So go, get outta here, but have a great. And if anyone asks, tell them that the capt'n sent ya. Respectfully, -Captain B. Feeling