I find myself almost every second of this day just wanted to wirte in here. To spill my thoughts and emotions that the whole world can see. But anyways, thats besides the point. I was just talking to Brandon Hayes, cuz hes friends with my boyfriend and his friends, and I asked him if my boyfriends friends talk shit about me. I asking him this because this other guy Cory was telling about it. On how they always tell Jake to break up with me and all this other shit. They also talk about my extremly big eyes. Okay Im sorry, but when i look in the mirror, I really dont see big eyes, but oh well, maybe cuz thats just me, and Im used to looking and seeing me in the mirror. But anyways, I was talking to Brandon and I asked him if they talk shit. He replies with, not everyday, but every other day. God just to heard that, it hurts, but then again, look at all his jock friends, without girlfriends, and going way beyond ugly. Im not saying Im good looking, personally, Im not, and I had serious issues about that this summer. Serious issues. But oh well, I dont even want to think about that. I just want to know what my future is...I wanna know whats gonna happen in my life for the rest of this year. Will my boyfriend and I STILL be together? Or will some other, better guy come and sweep me off my feet? Or is this guy that might come sweep me off my feet right in front of me and I dont know it? ahhh see, these are the thought running throught my complicated mind. Oh well. Ill just stop here be4 I ramble on any longer. x0x0, Amanda