Here I am. Left confused and frusterated. And scared. I don't know whether to laugh or cry...but emotions can go either way as of right now. Colin im'ed me asking how ____ was. Ugh...heres the whole conversation.... foozer104: so how's _____ Itsthemanderz: what foozer104: haha Itsthemanderz: how the hell do you know about that? foozer104: word gets around Itsthemanderz: your kidding me right foozer104: um sure Itsthemanderz: no seriously colin foozer104: are you mad Itsthemanderz: no i just want to know how you know foozer104: shima Itsthemanderz: shima? foozer104: kyle shimabuku Itsthemanderz: okay what the hell and how does he know foozer104: derek is like his best friend Itsthemanderz: wait wait wait Itsthemanderz: does derek know i like him? Itsthemanderz: is that what ur talking about foozer104: you're way off Itsthemanderz: does derek like me? foozer104: i can't tell you what i know Itsthemanderz: colin you don't understand Itsthemanderz: you have to tell me foozer104: why do i have to tell you Itsthemanderz: because i have liked that kid for a while... Itsthemanderz: so either dissapoint me or make me happy foozer104: well everyone knows you like him foozer104: anyone can see that Itsthemanderz: so thats it huh? foozer104: no Itsthemanderz: well... foozer104: i'm just stating the obvious Itsthemanderz: is that all? foozer104: of course not Itsthemanderz: can you tell me? Itsthemanderz: because im scared shitless right now foozer104: i just really shouldn't tell you foozer104: i promised Itsthemanderz: just tell me if its bad or good foozer104: :-X Itsthemanderz: colin Itsthemanderz: you don't understand foozer104: just don't worry about it Itsthemanderz: i know you made a promise Itsthemanderz: but honestly foozer104: well what do you think Itsthemanderz: i think that he knows i like him...somehow...i have no idea how...and that hes gonna avoid me and that he doesn't feel the same way...and that he just thinks of us as friends foozer104: has he been avoiding you Itsthemanderz: i dont know Itsthemanderz: im just weird Itsthemanderz: but tell me Itsthemanderz: you have noooo idea foozer104: i think i do Itsthemanderz: just tell me now and save me from my embarrssment Itsthemanderz: seriously foozer104: amanda i'm really really sorry i just can't foozer104: please forgive me Itsthemanderz: colin you cant tell me that you know something about the guy i have been trying to figure out for the longest time and not tell me foozer104: yes i can foozer104: sorry foozer104: but i g2g Itsthemanderz: i would wring your neck right now if i could Itsthemanderz: please do this for me foozer104: i know:-D Itsthemanderz: this seriously isn't something you should smile about foozer104: i know foozer104: just don't worry about it Itsthemanderz: im going to Itsthemanderz: its only human foozer104: it's not like you're gonna get married ya know Itsthemanderz: well duh Itsthemanderz: i just need to know so i can move on foozer104: well i can't help you out there foozer104: sorry foozer104: but i g2g foozer104: see ya Itsthemanderz: GGRRRRRRRRRRRRRR foozer104 signed off at 12:43:09 AM. Jesus christ. I don't know what to do with myself. I could hide in a hole for a while till this blows out...or I could fly. I don't know what to do. All I know is Colin needs to die, yet again. Amanda