"One day you're going to wake up and realize how much you really loved her, but when that day comes, she will be waking up to the man who already knew." What's a girl to do? I know I'm slowly getting over it, but things still get hard sometimes. I'm strong girl, but this whole situation has left me extremely vulnerable. Vulnerable enough to get hurt with my "rebound" fling. I don't know what's going on with it, there's so much grey area and it's leaving me waking up every morning and thinking about the daily struggle. The struggle wondering if he's gonna call, if he cares...and the thing is I shouldn't even be "struggling". I don't even deserve a "struggle"...it's a hard situation and I really think I need to stop it, before I get hurt anymore. I just think I need to stop getting feelings for guys for awhile, and taketime to figure myself out. It's late, Christmas is over and I'm going to sleep. Only to wake up to another day of wondering and struggling...