Honestly, ever since I've hurt myself I've like fallen into a hole. So cheer has been there for me, and so has my team. But now that I don't have that, what do I do? Sure, Colt brings me up when I'm down but it's not the same. I'm getting fat and I can feel it. I just want to tumble and run and dance and stunt and...whatever. Even if I don't have an appetite I know I'm still gaining weight. Jeeze, what happend to that six-pack? It's really sad how I've modeled what college I'm going to by cheer. Choice #1: UNLV cheer didn't work out because they didn't get my video on time. really upset me, because i believe that's where i would be the most happy. Choice #2: Since I just got back from San Jose today and I made cheer there, I'm confused. I seriously hated it there. I don't think I'd be happy. But there is the fact that I made cheer... Choice #3: My favorite. At least for today. Cal State Fullerton and cheer at Cali All-stars. okay that would basically like, make my life. Cali all-stars= my all time favorites. if i could be a bullet it would be like a dream come true. i'm not kidding. but i'm just not sure about cal state fullerton. seems kind of dull. What would be the best is being at UNLV, cheering there and being on Cali All-stars. okayyyyy never gonna happen because um yeah. self explanitory. i hate this. i dont like figuring out my life especially when i'm moody all the time and don't have an appetite. i honeslty don't remember the last time i was so unhappy/ moody/ ahhhhhhhh.