hhaaahahaha. yah...i feel like im on a major downhill right now. almost too much for me to handle. i swear to god, if one more bad thing happends im gonna break down. well, monique is for sure moving. my best friend is moving to colorado. yup. ahah and whoever wrote that entry in my guestbook how i shouldnt care if she moved somewhere else in ventura, bite me. shes moving to freaking colorado okay??!?! and dude. shes gonna go to columbine high. we actually joke around about it, how she should wear a trenchcoat and carry a water gun wherever she went. that girl cheer me up and make me laugh whatever mood I'm in. funny stuff yah but still. I'm dealing w/ the colin thing, im missing him like crazy....and its been hard just dealing with that. then my best friend is gonna move away. yep, that sucks. oh yea and now im grounded because I told my mom i did all the summer work she wanted me to do, but it turns out i only did half, and she found out. now she smad because i lied to her and "now she has lost my trust" god fucking damm it. that lady does not understand how lucky she is she doesnt have a crack whore for a daughter. I have goals, im probaly going to somewhere in life, and yet she treats me like some sort of criminal. ooo bite me. if only my mom knew, she has nooooo idea what the fuck im going through. and yet, she makes everything a whole lot worse. IM JUST SO FUCKING PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW. yah well...if all of this happened two months ago, i'd have someone to help me out, to hold my hand. but now i reach out despreatly for help, and no one is there to hold it. im in this by myself, and its one of the hardest things in the world.