Yah so right now “I’m working on summer work”. I really need to get this stuff done. BUT I REALLY DON’T WANT TO. I don’t feel like thinking. Yesterday was the last “kwistians” of the summer. I’m glad I went. Even though walking by some places like the staircase up to the roof and such…where we talked and pretty much got back together. I actually just went and sat in the spot where I was sitting when we talked. It was weird. Had some flashbacks. Unhealthy ones if I might add. I think right now I should pretty much avoid the fucker. Because whenever I see him I just want him back. God damn. I was going along JUST fine…then I saw him two days in a row. Max? I’m a pussy. I cant tell him how I feel and everything I need to. Very soon. I will. Freshman orientation was today. It was pretty fun. Again, seeing Colin is very unhealthy. And shit. I should never give him hugs ever again. He smells too good. And he still smells the same as he used to. Grr. I hate boys. Anyways. Yah orientation. I had to wake up at 6 and get to the boys gym at 7. ew. So us cool cougar connect people had to spend the day w/ freshman and stuff. Show them around campus and fun stuff like that. So I was in the weirdest hyper-tired mood. I think I might have scared some of the freshies. Oh well. When I went and sat with Dylann’s group for a second I told all the girls that high school boys are evil and U shouldn’t mess with them. Good thing they didn’t take me seriously. But I know I meant what I said. That’s too bad. I have nothing to write. I wanna go to sleep. Dance was okay today, I realized how freaking fat I got. Ew. I need to lose some weight man. No more Bacon ranch chicken sandwiches for me. I realized that I freaking suck too. I’m gonna work soo hard this year so I can get better, because seriously…I SUCK. Maybe its because of all the weight I have gained, but I don’t know. But I really need to start working hard. This isn’t pretty. X0x0x Amanda I really like the fact that I havnt been getting comments….ha