Funny how things change. The pattern of daily life, desires, wants, needs, cravings, relationships, whatever the day may bring. Every day we wake up something is bound to change. New Years was fun, reminded me of last year and a freshman crush, oh how I laugh. Through every action, there are still thoughts at the back of my head. Ones that linger, saying ,"Amanda, what if maybe there was a good thing supposed to come out of that conversation with Colin." For once my thoughts are straightened out. For once I have no regrets. Even if my assumptions aren't accurate, my feelings are. I thought that me and J hstill had something that we could pick up where we left off. Apparently he's the same horny dog I was with a month ago. That's one thing that HASN'T changed. Talk of doing something that I hadn;t done last time came up, I don't want to say what, but we talked about it. I asked him if I had done it, what would happen when we would wake up the next morning? I told him that things would just go back to normal, and people would act like nothing happend. He told me that things would change, and that he would call me, or whatever. ooo goody! How could I be soo lucky to get a call from him? Yah right. That's when I realized I didn't want things to be different, I wanted it the way we were, before last night. I don't want him. It obviously wasn't meant to be, whatsoever. My ehart is set on someone else. Someone else who I could see myself with, whose mind, body and soul is a puzzle peice and matches with mine. I'm glad things are figured out, the only thing is, I owe Anthony 10 bucks. Damn it. Amanda