I have come to the conclusion. A very tough conclusion to come by, i might add. I'm not gonna dance w/ my dance company next year. Dance doesn't make me happy anymore, it used to be my outlet, at times the only thing to turn to when things got rough, but now it seems to be the thing MAKING it rough. I am a good dancer, I know this, but it seems like I don't get the recognition for it, and it is literally tearing me apart. I have decided to stake it out through the show, and in August, quit company. I will take ballet classes w/ Linda (an old ballet teacher, but a good one) and still take some jazz classes at Mackinnon (my studio). I might also look into some other studios in the area, but we will see. This way, there won't be any interferences w/ cheerleading, and I can commit to that. Hopefully it works out. But quiting company is kind of like ruining my plans or goals for the future. Dancing in college, being on Broadway all those sorts of things. I'm just lost and don't really know what to do. I just hope it works out and I can learn to actually enjoy my self when I dance, instead of hating myseld all together.