happiness only lasts so long. obviously. i knew it would soon be coming, and it did. Except it didn't hit me in parts, IT being bad stuff, I guess someone decided that it should it all at once. ALL IN ONE DAY. at school all this stupid drama happend...the football players decided to act they are 5 and come up with "FSB". In other words, fuck sophmore bitches. That obviously didn't make me happy. At dance one of the girl in the dance company came in, and looked a little sad. As we were getting ready to start company rehersal, Megan comes in with Joy and her dad holding her hand and she tells us that her mom passed away. My knees grew weak and I fell to the floor and cryed until my eyes hurt. Her mom was the nicest lady ever. I can't imagine what it must be like for Megan. Again, having the shittiest day ever, as if anything couldn't have been worse, J decided to basically break it off. What an idiot. My heart aches. Literally. But you know what? I realized how effing strong I am. I havn't broken down too much, which tells me a lot. I owe part of that to Colin. Thanks buddy. Love always, Amanda