I'll be true. I'll be useful. Blah blah blah. Why the hell am I listening to Dashboard right now? It's really not what I'm need. Bad day, right? Maybe it's because I'm seriously feeling lonely. Sure, I have my friends, but not deep friends I can talk about life with, instead of what I just bought at the mall. I just realized that's whats missing. Who is there to talk on the phone with every night? Sure, there's a few, but nothing like I want. Who is there to make me SMILE and not EVER make me feel uneasy? Is it just a game? I'm sick of games. I'm sick of being hurt. Why can't I just guard myself like other people do? Because I can't ever be alone. I HAVE to have someone who is there. No matter what. Maybe this is karma. I don't know. I've already hurt enough. Maybe I should stop feeling sorry for myself. I just hurts.