It's been awhile. Definatly. Cheerleading is going well, games are a lot of fun. I love everyone on the squad, there is NO drama, which is awesome. My mom keeps telling me how I need to go back to dance and blah blah blah. I want to go back to dance more than anything, I just have nowhere to go. I was talking to my mom about dancing and stuff and it really got to me. Me told me how I needed to keep up dance so I could dance in college and stuff. I replied with "Are you kidding me? I'm not good enough to dance in college." Mom then says, "You see, I could kill that woman, Joy, do you see what she has done to you? You have no confidence as a dancer, which obviouly began to reflect in your dancing." That really got me thinking. I am a talented dancer, and outsider could see that, it's a shame my passion was thrown away by other people and that I let it get to me. But I am beginning to think that I AM very talented and dedicated to everything I do, I just don't know where all these things I've done will bring me later in life. I went figure skating today for the first time in like, two years. At first it felt realllly weird, but sooner or later I got the hang of it again, and everything came back so easily. I could have been soo good. Soo good if I kept up with it. But two broken tailbones forced me to quit, and it's a shame. I wish everything in life was easy, and I could do anything in life without having anything get in my way. I know it doesn't work that way. Allen came home on Saturday, and it was unreal having him home. It felt just like old times, but I know that we have grown much much closer since he left. Everything felt right with him at home, how it should be. It made all the fights and tears worthwhile, just to have him here for one day. It's just hard to know that all our little bickering wouldn't even be happening if he was at home, I guess that's whats so tuff about long-distance relationships. But I have every reason to believe it's going to work. Everything right now is fine. No fighting, to anger, and it's got rid of a lot of stress. I think it was just a stage. I think it's just how we "bonded". School is school. It's definatly getting better now that football season has started, because football season is the best time of the year, seriously. That all. Bye bye.