hey all wut is up?? i woke up way to freakin early in the morning it was like 7:30AM and still dark, that doesnt sound early to some of you 6:30AMers but i dont wake up until 8 so thirty minutes is a biggy. once again im am in class BCIS rather doing stuff that I can do at home on my own time, and once again makin me wonder why I am here. well i got over my mood with a little bit of what alot of people call "new age healing". I got this tape that helps me calm down, lit my candles, and sat in a state of tranquility until my heart and my mind forgave those who had trespassed against me for the day. Oh and about my whore ass cousin, who slept with my ex, wells she is forgiven too, and it's her problem. I was honest with her, I told her that one night stands are not what people with high morals do, and if you want to luv a guy and have him love you back the best thing not to do is give him your all in one night because more than likely he won't be back for more(rather he liked it or not). she knows i love her, because she is family but that i dont respect or trust her because people who love me dont hurt me for sexual plessure or hide secrets until they can't handle it anymore. I understand with totalness that it was a mistake and we all make mistakes, but if I ever have to mend a broken heart of a loved one that's been broken by one of my ex's that loved one is just going to have to ice it down and get over it without me forever. Summary I wrote a letter to my demanding friend, will write one to the one who cut my hair, understand that my boyfriend just doesn't want me leaving him off of superstitions (that and I was gettin on his nerves; doesn't want to add more to it) and well i dont understand my dad, but as far as i am concerned I guess i'll learn patients as a value, let me mom buy it all, and when my dad is old, decrepit, and lookin for a child to take care of him i will simply have to rethink it :D!!