im still happy. ive been praying or what others will call meditating alot. its been good for me. theraputic. plus i am getting the majority of things needed to be done, done. its nice if i do say so myself. anyways, i talked to jeffrey and i realized that though it seemed like i had all of the answers when we talked i am in the dark once again. i mean it seems like he is giving me answers then,but when i get on here to talk about what we decided to do about his drug problems and how he felt about my letter i dont really have any answers. i guess all i can is he plans to quit for his mom's sakes (before i even said something) and that he plans to get another job. i he said that he never knew i could feel that way about him and now that he knows exactly how hard it is for me to trust he'll try his best to be perfect. having said that, it feels like maybe he is perfect. anyways i plan to have an awesome day. my new meditation sentence is " i am a happy person who will turn any negative situation into a positive" and so far i have been. well class is over and i have to logg off the computer so ill have to edit this later luv always sugah