fuck connections and such and on to anger. i am so angry right now that i dont know what to do. i dont even want to answer my phone. my period is late. my boyfriend is crazy. and it seems like he is not listening to me AT ALL. most of all i miss my friend. LAJEFFREY WANTS TO PUT THAT GOLD SHIT IN HIS MOUTH!! That is so bad for anything. if you want a job. and i am not even gone mention how bad it is for your teeth! plus i dont see it lookin right on him. he is not any of the colors that the people who you see with that in their mouthes are. I am just praying that he will come to his sences or just be bullshittin with me. naw he better hope he was so fuckin serious b/c if not he has a problem. I hate being played with like that. dont carry out jokes like that for so long. its buji and bullshit together (yes i am aware that they are the same thing). and another thing. yes i am very aware that that is him mouth and that those are his teeth but i have to kiss him and on top of that he already has a tounge ring. that is too much going on in one's mouth. i mean its just like those girls with braces and a tounge ring. its too much goin on. anyways. like i said i miss my best friend. we've gotten older and have new boyfrieneds with less time on our hands we hardly see each other. plus he's moved into this different house or he is in the process of moving so right now communication is sparce. i wish i had a car and license. if i did right now we would be out somewhere enjoying each other. i was so happy today. no matter what came my way. i was able to brush it off. now things are just not going my way. i think ill take a nice hot steamy bath and indulge in a book. no lajeffrey tonight. i have testing in the morning i need plenty of sleep and a reason to wake up in the morning besides the fact that iam indanger of failing b/c of absences. well dont want to bore you too long so ill make this the end. luv always Sugah