i am back in contact with the ex of all ex's the most rememorable ex's of all ex's. my very first boyfriend ever!! gosh. i dont think i ever loved him. mainly b/c it was a two year thing starting from FIFTH GRADE. so anyways. i have always had deep feelings for him. that boy was my best friend. and at any time can be. we always lose contact. because of our poor choices. right now he is in love and i am in love. its not with each other. and we can talk about that without feeling pain. that is tight. very tight. we plan to date in the future if possible. i am so over evvan. i got tired of him walkin in and out as he damn well pleased. julie too. ill show my respect. but im not some damn carpet.nobody's walkin all over me. laid right or not (ha ha). so anyways im okay with this day skip a day thing me and my boyfriend do when it comes to talkin on the phone. he knows i love him, and i dont know about him(not gone lie) he says he does but people can be confused or just plain lying. it doenst matter that boy is my world all over again. rotating in full. and spinning my mind in circles in some beautiful rythm called love. man i am so wired. i had an awesome day filled with God. man God truely is love. well since i have so much to say ill get off b/c that is too much to have yall reading. luv always ~TARA~