my phone got cut off today. as soon as i knew these things my moods began to swing. or basically i was feeling things that i always feel, and decided to act on them today. fuck bottling in emotions. its bad for your health. jeffrey had went swimming with mike and these girls and man that set me off. i let him know it to. call me crazy but ive set him up, im having this really pretty girl kiss him and if he kisses her back he's released. or if he lies about it he's gone. that is my favorite person in the world more than half of the time but i will be nobody's fool. better late than never (to know your man's a dog) somebody wants to kill me. im scared. when i turn eighteen i am heir to a considerable amount of money and somebody is starting to try to see how much i am worth. they(my fam) are afraid that i am going to be kidnapped or something worse. and i am too. i offered to buy a gat but they werent going for that. well no i am agg, because Trey is calling me fat. lol. ill get over it. well im not really mad just really prepared to go to the gym now. well enough rambling for now. luv always sugah oh and by the way thanx for caring but that poem was not entirely about me and i am so sorry for not explaining that b4 i got off. my mood was just too low. my best friend called me a racist and a whole lot of other things. i bet its because he thought i was calling him a coconut but i wasnt he was just putting words in my mouth. anyways it made me so mad that i decided when he wants to talk he can call b/c i dont have time for people with attitudes like that. i am dealing with my own. i hate when he does like that. i just hate it when he gets in this bad ass mood and trips out on me. he's making me want to cry. how can i get it off my mind?? luv always sugah