hey everybody if you read my diary yesterday and saw all of that bad stuff and said she will be okay you were right. though i never said that i wouldnt be. i got to click and break Safari's heart. and even if it was just a fraud i still ment every word and one day he will realize that and hate himself. i asked him questions he needed to be asked.Tara 2 Safari: how does it feel to be on your way to fuckin fifty different people? and then there's how can you sit there and say your in love with me and love me and then do this shit? then i let him know tara 2 safari: i cant believe i cheated on my angel for you!! aint no love here for you no more, you've dried me all up and yes i am aware of what im saying. it felt great. every last word. and i walked out feelin superior. a two day high ya know. like i already knew he didnt know she was my cousin, and she is never going to tell him. which is cool b/c sluts will get theirs and if she let go of a family tie for some sex then hey. do what you do huh? my family aint perfect or completely back to normal but we are almost there and i mean im not askin for normal. ill take it how it comes and deal with it. i just feel real good. i nolonger want to beat the shit out of my cuddy nor do i want to continue saying things to break safari down into two pieces. yes i am officially done with that and turnin a new page, and really on the reals i did that to help him. b/c guys this nigga is a jiggalo, and one day he might catch something that he cant get rid of. my boyfriends family, well i dont know. he's a big boi we didnt do this alone so as far as im concerned he can handle that on his own and how they feel about me can sit on their face or wallow in their heart, because i cant be sorry all my life. but to update you all we will stay together, and he can definantly see farther than me. but its all good. Christmas is in five days and i still get to open all of my presents. yah see you all later in a day. bye