Hey all I am very very very depressed, well it's a very un natural depression for me because I can't find a thing to smile about and it's been going on for oh I don't know 4 days. I smoked this weed yesterday, very dark green, and burned real slow my God they said I was trippin off my ass and I came home and I was still sad. Last night I couldn't control myself, so I won't be smokin anymore because I might kill myself in this state I am in. Has anybody heard of that spiny angel or something like that? Where you chew the pine needles from those trees and start to have illusions and stuff?? Well this kid in my city tried it out, walked on to the high way and just stood there. He's dead now, I didn't know him very well but appearantly he was my boyfriend's friend so now we are both depressed and barely holding on. One of the main reasons I am depressed I'm guessing is because me and my boyfriend are slippin, and I'm hurting people left and right. All of my help is out of town for Thanksgiving so I have to handle it all by myself and I'm not sure if I should be doin that with this depression and shit. Actually I think i am pretty well off b/c i am not thinking bout killin myself yet, but i keep thinking that this is the end between me and Aaron and that I am about to have to say bye bye to my boyfriend and i dont. does somebody have some advise for me or something like that cause right now I need the help.