welp this is my actual last week of freedom. i will be enjoying my first holiday this friday and monday and then its back to school for me. back to work for me. back to a very hectic schedule, but now its even more a lil more hectic. i got the baby. me and my new boyfriend play a lil game called secrets. each night i tell him one of the lil secrets that has been dwelling in me for at least a year. lol. its real hard for me to express myself. its so embarrasing. people laugh at the way i feel and it makes me not want to do it again. that or they lack the understanding it takes to quite understand where i am trying to take them with my emotions. anyways we are getting really far with the game. i guess. he kind of doesnt respond, like he doesnt tell me how he feels about what i just told him so the next secret i am going to tell him is that i get angry and sad at the same time.... and then on another day ill tell him what it is that makes me angry and sad. but ill tell ya'll today. it makes me mad and sad at the same time that i am so in love with him and he doesnt feel the same. and if he does he doesnt say it. i mean im so confused. he spends the majority of his free time with me and the baby and is so sweet and generous and giving and loving and doesnt tell me a thing about how he feels. he just asked me to be with him yesterday???? does somebody understand??? well shit if yall dont i guess im stuck if yall do let me know luv always sugah