okay i am a total loser for reals this time. omg. i had so badly just wanted to see Aaron all this week right? okay so i get the chance and I totally freak out! like im some lil girl or something. I mean first when i felt his presence I ran up the stairs!! then I tried to vanish, but my friend threatened to get him and follow me so i stayed put. gosh when i saw him. I couldnt look him in the eyes, and I gave him the weakest hug in the world. what is totally bad is i hugged everybody and talked to everybody but him in a calm and natural way. I know he has got to be wondering what is going on. to top it all off i have a reason. I mean i feel like the fact that i dont work well with large unfamilar crowds starts it off, but then (lol) all these hoez (yea i said it) hoez be watching me and him like im flirting with they man or suntin.Bananas!!I didnt become the real me till the fights. check dis yall. my fuckin hoe ass cousin (the one that fucked Fari) gone look at me like bitch you better say hey or like im supposed be scared. I had to click. cousin or not. I was like bitch you weigh what 90 lbs?? keep playin. knock ya hoe ass down. translation girl if you dont stop staring at me like you dont have any sence i will knock your skinny ass out. fixed her quick. she is now scared. and i want her to be. I want her to get somethin started. i got so much hate right now and for a while. a fist to somebody's face would be quite the remedy. so anyways i havent talked to my boyfriend since that sad day. which was only yesterday. but its weird, b/c i wish he would call. but since i have nothing left to say ill just holla and hope i can update this tomorrow. oo no wait. i have this guy that i have always liked with a passion, and now he is on my mind. lol. if i dont see him my day is fucked up. i just love me so him. i think i have a problem. people like me do not need to be in relationships. by the way the guys name is Lajeffrey. in fact ill call him now.