IM VERY DEPRESSED. AGAIN. ON THAT low. AGAIN. God DOES IT EVER STOP?? ITS JEFFREY AGAIN. IM CONFUSED AGAIN. IM IN LOVE AND REALIZE AND IAM SCARED AGAIN. HE CONTROLS MY FEELINGS AND I REALIZE IT AGAIN. WHY DOES HE GET TO DO THAT TO ME??? DOES HE APPRECIATE ME?? DOES HE UNDERSTAND ME?? WHEN WILL HE WALK OUT OF MY LIFE LIKE ALL THE REST?? WHO WILL I RUN TO WHEN HE DOES?? WHAT WILL I DO? HOW WILL I FEEL? HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE FOR ME TO HEAL?? IM CRYING SO HARD RIGHT NOW THAT IT LOOKS LIKE RAIN IN FRONT OF MY FACE. ONLY UNLIKE RAIN, TEARS BEGIN TO STING. WHEN YOU CRY. YOUR TEARS GIVE YOU A REASON TO STOP.YOU KNOW YOUR REALLY SAD WHEN YOU CANT. IM SO TIRED OF MEN WALKIN RIGHT INTO MY LIFE CLAIMING TO THE PRINCE CHARMING. IM TIRED OF ME FALLING FOR IT. EVERYTIME!!! I HATE MYSELF. DAMMIT. edit can you believe i have two so called perfect men trying to shot me a holla and im not interested. because their not jeffrey.and that fucking sux. i hate it. i hate myself. i remember sheinne taught me how to love me. and trey taught me that a guy can spend $120 dollars on you in one day and you will owe him nothing but a smile and a thank you. what the fuck is wrong with me??? who am i supposed to be with?? somebody tell me please. i wrote jeffrey a long letter explaining myself and my actions. do you think he will understand?? i hope so. im insane