endless love you are so right. i am not going to hide what i did. and i cant regret it. im only human and we all make mistakes. man that saying is so damn cliche. anyways my baby came out in one peice during a sexual incounter with its father. not only is it sick but it is embarrasing. weird thing is he cried. and cried. and then i cried b/c he was crying i knew it was gone long ago. it had developed like arms well like i dont think it has legs. just some tail like thing and lil things like arms that reach out. if he had ever doubted me this gave him a real reason not to. its not that i am ashamed of what i did i just dont want to have to read about it anymore. paranoid b/c all of the rumors going around my school. i finally realized where they come from. the wrong people know about stuff. i mean my brothers know. but then so does his girlfriend. and i dont tell her biz and she values that so maybe she'll do the same for me. no idea. not worried. im not pregnant everything else people can leave to the imagination. but then his friends know. his closests ones. and yea they keep stuff cool. but then i am pretty sure they talk about it when they get high. anyways i am not prepared for his friends to know and if they know how i lost it everybody will know exactly how true it is. well i cant worry. its over now. praise be to God. got to go luv always Sugah