im naming this one truthfully because its time that maybe i told the truth. for those of you who dont know me my name is TARA Elan Shelton and i live a very dark and secret life. you know the type that make you go into depressive fits sometimes that takes you forever and a day to get out of?? because your life is so secret. such a mystery. you cant really tell anybody who you really are. nobody really knows you. and you dont wear faces you just dont talk. yea thats me. ide like to be honest with myself right now. i am a slut. because i look for love. in all the wrong places. believe me no guy loves you and if he does it wont last long enough for it to matter much anywho. and now i am not only just a slut, well i prefer the word hoe because i am not really sure what a slut is. but anyways i am a pregnant hoe. who has been lets just call it knocked up. because though the father knows he has a baby on the way he is not doing anything in his power to communicate with me. and rather than be avoided and mistreated i allow it and act as if i enjoy. i dont try to contact or communicate with him either. maybe i am such a good actor i believe myself now or maybe it is true. i dont need him here i am tired of being pregnant. and i am tired of always being not in control of it. i wont say i know for sure that i am pregnant either, but then its just denial. i havent had my period is a good four or five weeks and i havent taken a test to see why either. i need a way out, an escape. the only one i can think of right now is death. but death is so final. do i really want to die?? no what i want is to be strung out someswhere in a mental home not knowing where the hell i am. truthfully i dont want to be me anymore. i think i might hate me. truthfully anyways luv always sugah