im crying now. i thought u could never do it. what the fuck was i thinking?? i have no clue. i just love you so much that i cant understand why i am not enough for you. and whey people can say the things they say about me with a clear conscience and it never bother them again. i pulled so many strings to be with you and now i am wondering how worth it it was. you are so worth it to me that it was all worth it and i would do it again. its funny though. u always thought i would cheat on you, and yea u were a little right. i guess i have no right to cry. what goes around comes around. just did you just have to be so vicious about it? what did i do? why wasnt i enough? can you explain that to me? okay and with all of the drama happening did it have to be birthday week? what do i do now? how do i smile? who is hurtin me?? me or them? well to inform yall a little jeffrey's mom is so fuckin two faced, she told a friend of her's that she is tired of me and how dare my mom say when jeffrey needs to leave yet i stay the night!! why couldnt she say it to me? why did she need to keep me guessing? and why cant anybody ever tell me im not what they want?? gosh i guess im just being a drama queen again. only this time im on my way back to being icey. i guess this is what i get for caring. luv always sugah