blessed be the day. my blessed birthday. thanx so much everybody who made it so special b/c it was so special. i mean i felt so good.i never feel me getting older, but everybody made it seem like me turning a year older was very important. i loved it. i dressed up all nice and wore tall shoes. matched from head to toe. trey took me to walmart. my favorite store. and we bought and we bought and we bought. it was all his idea. and i cant say no to him b/c he would never say no to me. is it me or when a guy is good to you, you start to notice that your guy isnt?? i think so b/c today i saw all of lajeffrey's faults. well no, b/c even when there is no other boy tryin to court me i know when lajeffrey is being a pain or doing wrong. like today he was sweet for a min, and then i guess he's mad b/c i turned off my phone after all the drama and didnt turn it on till bout thirty mins ago. no telling. but i was like what did you do today? and he was like fuck and get my dick sucked. and i was really by who? and u know so on and so on. i told him that i choose to believe him b/c if he doesnt mean it dont say it (he was pissed bout that). and then he got mad at me b/c he always says "i dont care" and then i always reply with an "i know you dont". and he hates that b/c i know he cares and he knows i know too, he doesnt want to hear different. but ill be damned if he gets the last word with me, those days are over and im nobody's push over. if this wasnt my birthday and i trey hadnt made it so good with all he did including the dinner date this would be a bad day. whitney (t's girlfriend) might be mad at me. b/c i relayed a message for aaron, and well yall know all that. well like i said aaron can never get a story straight and he got it wrong and whitney was just confirming that yea he said it. well now they might break up and she's really sensitive, and i had just wanted to appologize for all the trouble i caused by relaying the message but couldnt b/c her mom cussed me out. jeez i hope she isnt mad. cant worry bout it though. well this is enough said. plus i need to reply to the people who make me smile luv always sugah