omg i am so fuckin happy. my day was awesome. my mom bought me a new celly. its tight. lajeffrey programmed it for me (he can never stay mad at me long enough for it to matter, but when he is man it sux). ca u beieve the reason he was mad at me was for dancing with this guy (yea the guy likes me and shit) and for quote unquote "not calling"??? today was really nice. he wants me to live with him in el paso. and guys i dont mean to sound nerdy but i am a baby who needs her mommy on my pms days for reals. plus my period hates boys so there is no way we could do that. i might kill him or something. i dunno. plus i would turn very sexual and do dumb things. i dont want to be another satistic and i cant trust myself around lajeffrey so i wont risk it. maybe though. if midland gets too bad anyways. i have no respect for my brother (dupree) wutsoever. he beats his girlfriend. and disrespects her in her face. she's a foreign person so its not like she can leave or anyting. besides he romanced her. made her feel beautiful. still does. but plays with her. how the hell does she do it? even i can walk out in those situations. she's got this huge hand print on her face from his slapping her 3 DAYS AGO!!! u just got to get hateful. how can he do that to her? my brodders started fighting today(ralph and jerome). i have a favorite(ralph) and one was majorly wrong(jerome) so i stared him down till he got his shit straight. i think that maybe fire shows in my eyes when iam angry or just really light eyes give u away. b/c everybody can always see what i am thinking. i was so pissed. he messed up everybody's happy moment. thank God everybody is able to switch moods really quick. it was quiet, then loud, then a peaceful loudness. Praise God for family right? exciting day. full of good stuff. Jasmin called me. she sounded pissed. she wasnt about to ruin my day though so i told her holla. my mom says that she totally understands what i am going through with Jasmin. Jasmin is the type to treat people like pawns in a game. she feels like she is the queen and can do all things and that we better like it. very opinionated. doesnt leave room for you to have one. i remember we made a pac to be friends forever. we werent kidding. well get over it. we just need time and space. we are both changing. im with somebody i could never be with before. iam somebody i could never be before. i am free and i am happy then a hoe. (lol). while her relationship is faltering b/c its gotten too serious. lack of space. lack of freedom. lack of EVERYTHING!!