Gosh I dont know if i got the chance to say it yesterday, but i was so mad at my boyfriend. he was gettin on my nerves on purpose b/c he knew i was already frustrated (parents), but then he wouldnt hang up and he wouldnt let me go and he made it better. in real life that boi never gives up on me, for shit man. I mean i am the biggest cheater in the world, well not the biggest but in my group of friends it seems as if i am the only one that understands the mind of a cheater and am the only one who cheats. lol hince my nick name Beize, just another weird way to spell busy b/c that is what i do all the time. stay busy. but he never gives up he always sticks around and shoot he always makes me keep going to b/c i am the quickest one to give up on stuff like that (relationships) always walkin out. but anyways i greatly appreciated him never giving up and always makin my day a bunch of smiles. i didnt even realize that until now so ill have to tell him that the next time i talk to him. i should feel bad, i am always trying to change him make him go places or do things he just doesnt normally do. but i dont b/c he likes it and he loves to be with me, i just want him to be with me in places i am the happiest. guys this is a happy love moment. last night he was lying like on top of me and i asked him why he always does that ( i mean the guy isnt light, he's about 5'10" and solid) and he said it was b/c he always felt like he was touching an angel, or simply lying in heaven. i mean i had no choice to believe him and smile b/c he always does it for no explained reason and when he is mad that is all he wants to do. i was so in love you guys!! starry eyed. ;P so anyways today was another great day if i havent already said that. because i made it be a great day. lots of stuff tried to hold me down but today guys i am still happy with no break downs in sight. and he did it again tonight, he cared about me, he made me smile, he did something no ex of mine has ever done and i loved it. lol since i said him i guess i need to say i love him (for all thats worth). and u guys should try to make sure eery day is a great day, and if it isnt comment me and ill holla back and make it that way. so anyways im done b/c nothign special happened. oh yea i went to young life and those people up there make me feel so loved so big ups to Mrs. Cindy b/c she always makes me feel wanted and appreciated and we all know people need to feel that. byee ~TARA~