okay well since yesterday ive had a pretty nice day. actually last night was nice. i talked to lajeffrey on the phone like three times. it was cool i guess. weird as fuck. still cool though. but today he was totally weird. i mean like we hardly talked (even though i didnt get to school till after lunch. with is fourth period). he hugged me he kissed me and since then i havent talked to him at all. he hasnt called.see this is the type of shit i dont like. shit where i cant be sure. i know he isnt with mattie they broke up. i just never believed him. i know how he feels about me. now i got to see what the hell he is gone do about it. i wonder what that is. i wont worry about it. in a matter of fact i dont think i worried till i wrote it. anyways i went to the movies with chris today for his birthday. real nice. saw gothika. finally. it was fun i guess. me and chris would not work. i know it. found out aaron never wants to date another girl again. guess i caused some damage. naw not really. he said he just realized he is incapable of some really important things. things people have the right to complain about. like letting others be aware of his feelings for them. incapable of showing love. damn near incapable of caring. so anyways. i have nothing else to say. maybe tomorrow i wont write at all. luv always Tara