well i think me and my boyfriend broke up. I could tell the story but it might be a stupid one. because i was doing stupid stuff. i was high. im stupid when im high. and i like the feeling. so i lit up right there on the phone. and chiefed til i went stupid. we were talkin. i guess i said something mean/stupid. he said something mean. stupid to me. i caught on. i got ruder. he jumped on my train. and so he said lets hang up. or well he asked me did i want to. and being who the hell i am i said yes. this is an old story. this is the story of me and safari. ive done this before. my pride will kick my ass. and i will let it. im lettin history repeat itself. hopefully. aaron will be the better of us two. and get what he wants. but maybe he doesnt even want me. if he knows what is good for him. (for those who didnt know, if he knows what is good for him he wont)for everybody following my life. i want you to know i was going to tell safari that i cant do this anymore. for aaron. but now that it might be over. im still doing it. now its just for me. and ill dedicate it. to aaron. ill do it this time. b/c that is what is good for me. i need more willpower, and more ways to keep my no no. this year i will do what tara wants. and what is in the best intrest for tara.speakin in third person is weird. but i like it. jeez. i remember the last time i saw aaron. he was beautiful, in more ways than one. i miss him. and ill be really sad if when he smiles its not mine anymore. yes i know ill get through it. but i really dont want to go through it without him. dang. how do you let an angel fly by?