hmm. .. lets see. when's the last time i wrote in this thing and what did i say??? probably a pointless nothing. i wont go back and check. this weekend was weird. i finished alot of the major stuff in my room. now all i have to do is install shelves, connect my track lights, and window treatments. oh yea i need an entertainment center. okay enough with that chatter. me and jeffrey got mad at each other thursday b/c he said BLACK GIRLS as if he wishes i was white. i told him i didnt have anything nice to say to him so we hung up. friday he thought i was still mad b/c i was busy and didnt want to chat. so he left to dallas with his friend Mike Abalos (who is a totaly hottie) to a soccer tournament in Dallas. he didnt come back till sunday. i missed him everyday of his goneness. dude that is so funny. i didnt get to finish this entry b/c i was doing it in class. anyways me and jeffrey got mad at each other that day and i had a nervous breakdown b/c it was just too much (earlier that day my cousins cussed out my fuckin momma). i coudlnt handle it so i pulled out my black and milds and smoked away. had there been alcohol i would have been so drunk. i have to have a clean system (no drugs in my body)in the next week or so or i will find myself jobless. im so fuckin paranoid about the shit. today was a good day. no matter what came my way i just decided "fuck it". i wont bother with it b/c i have better things to worry about. how bout nothing. lol. "hakuna matata". anyways im just jibbering now. so people will know iam still alive and i will reply to diaries tomorrow. luv always sugah