okay and the truth will come out. as if it was beaten and forced. i am scared. as always i feel like i am not good enough. so now iam wondering why is lajeffrey here. and i want to know now! seriously. i mean yes he has done alot for me. but maybe that is just the type of person he is. i dont want to take his friendlyness for common intrest in me. just b/c i am intrested in him. i want to tell myself that i dont love him when i do. that is my sun and moon the day begins and ends with him. i bet the Lord is mad at me right now. spending too much time thinking about the wrong person when i should really wake up and praise God go to bed and praise God. I want to know if Lajeffrey is in on a one on one thing. or is he leaning more toward sharing his wealth. and are the things he says true. or do they just sound good coming out. well that is what i get for being a non trusting person. ill update later luv always Sugah