you know life changes right after i write it down. seriously, right after i talk about my day something changes about it. for example last night me and evvan arranged the time and day for the movies and i felt weird and then i talked to my sister who said it shouldnt feel bad b/c my boyfriend doesnt take me to the movies. and then(EVVAn) called me later at night at made me feel better b/c yesterday though i was feeling great my psychy wasnt feelin so hot cuz my best friend's sister said im a hoe! she doesnt even know me and is always talkin to me. it really had me upset b/c i cant ask her about it, i am not supposed to know, she is always talking to me, and she doenst know me but tells her mom and her mom tells her sister who is one of my friends mother who is now afraid to let her daughter hang with me. such bullshit. okay with names in it my best friends Michael's sister, Lauren, thinks i am a hoe, and she told her mother who told Mrs. Nelson who is my other friend Natalie's mother and is now afraid to let Nat hang out with me. this pisses me off b/c she doesnt even know me and just assumes that i am b/c one of my ex boyfriend Safari is a big hoe. im like bitch who the fuck are you to tell me what the fuck i am and shit you aint no damn virgin ya got damn self. but i cant say anything b/c im not even supposed to know!!! but other than that i felt super happy and barely anything could get me down, in fact i didnt get sad got angry and i admit that it hurt a lil bit b/c the fact that she has been fakin in my face and doesnt know me but oh well. today i am going to the movies with Evvan and umm ill try to spend some time with my boi Aaron but i dont think i can do both and Community Service. i feel super bad b/c im doing both if i can but definantly chillin with evvan and i know i love him lots.its like cheating. but really and truely this is AAron fault b/c he didnt plan anyting and evvan had already asked so i was like yea fo sho. Aaron cant just be all last minute i mean i do have a life.