school starts tomorrow. im in no mood for school. now that i have my shit straight. i prayed to my god, more like God. he got me straight. thats all it takes usually. once i figuere out that i need him. i asked him to make me secure in myself and my relationship. and to give me the strength to make this a true monogamous relationship with no secrets. not that i plan to umm tell him my past mistakes. what he doesnt know wont hurt him. and if i tell him, he will die. right now im washing my hair. well not my hair. b/c i didnt buy it. but the hair that i will be putting in my head. i am in no mood to have to wake up and comb my head. i havent did that in quite a while. if you go to school with me you know how i look those moments that i dont care. i dont care alot of the time. cant look too fine. or other boys may try and get me and i simply am a cheater. ive read a few journals. lots of different styles on this thing. ive adopted a few. tell what i did today how i felt and what ill be doing. but then there are diaries that do other tings. i dont know i like them all. and i leave lots of comments. im strange like that i guess, and i feel like i ought to say something to them after i read it. well anyways now i have to wash my hair. so ill get on here later and delete this and rewrite it. unless i dont have time or somebody comments. so yall around. ha. not.