yup back at smokin, back at drinking, back at feeling sorry for myself. back at wanting to die, back at being very alone. IM BACK!!! FULL effects. high as hell. he dont love me. if u guys didnt know. things i did this summer pulled him away from me. he wants to send the baby to his grandmaws. fuck that. if i can have it i can raise it. he dont want me i dont give a damn. my baby well shoot. he should have a daddy regardless of mommas mistakes. i wanted him to love. and to always be there. now im drunk and high and want to die. i wont say woe is me. just a personal update. hey guys thanx for the comments. ill comment asap. bad girl on the keys. i type so good high its horrible. i guess when u live ur life one way u can do it like that. ill stop. i promise. till then IM BACK!! luv always sugah