is it me? or is nobody listening to me anymore? you tell me. I mean nobody replies to what I have to say on this thing. and in person people think they came up with the idea all by themselves when usually it was something i said twelve mins ago. well. my friend says i am a slut. b/c i am contemplating sex at this moment. and b/c i have hickies all over me. and b/c well i am just a sexually liberated person. i can not refine myself sexually or i have simply confined myself into a world of rules and regulations. which will depress me. or drive me mad. so to fix things. I wont tell him anything else about Lajeffrey b/c he will only tell me things I dont want to hear. which very well may be true. but hey what you dont want to hear you shouldnt force yourself to right? Lajeffrey might be in jail by the time I wake up in the morning. I don't know what he did. But when I called my brother to tell him that I love him and the family and to have a good night he told me that Lajeffrey was in front of the house with the cops. And ya'll like I said. Lajeffrey is a lot like me. So anytime the cops are talking to ya it's not for drug awareness. Unless they are alerting you that they know you are on drugs and going to jail for it. I hope he doesn't have to go b/c ill miss him like shit. Hell. I might be a bitch all week if he does, or until he gets out. Shit my day will not be complete at all. So anyways off of the bad and on to the good. This weekend was awesome. Now I am grounded from most of the things I love. But since i stepped out of all things that I usually hold myself back from. I am very proud of myself ya dig? Oh and Safari is in prison. which also makes me happy. hes locked up and confined from the things that hurt. i have no idea why. His broder (Puppa, Aka Ceromie) said that he wanted to go so he's in there. Which allowed me to make the comment that He must have a boyfriend there, since I always say Safari is gay anyways. I hope his dick falls off and turns green so he can never touch another soul again with that thing he calls penis. and my cousin. Well i hope her hole rots shuT!! Over View life is good for now. Im bubbling all over and filled with joy. On sleeping pills so I'm just a lil numb. but not sleepy at all. wishing the world happy tidings. Take care till later when my bubble pops(some cant wait)!! Sugah ps word of the day must be confined.