oh gosh i am so happy to see this diary again.I love this diary. My lil therapist. to yell out and somebody hears me is amazing. thank you man who created this for people like me who needed somebody's therapy. so anyways. I have learned to leave cute lil messages on my boyfriends cell phone saying how i feel to make up for the fact that I do not call. and today in amatter of factly i called him before he called me, and didnt think about it till i hung up. Amazing. I am growing. because yes i know what i do is childish. or maybe its deeper. time will tell. i plan to do a hell of a lot today. we did our track thing running from the stadium to the park and back. whoo tiring. but to feel like the super hero that i am i wrestled with the boys for about thirty mins. i got to give it to the guys that is hard, and you do require strength. but my brains allowed me to win a few. other than that. smokin has takin a toll on how fast and much i move. sad to say. i am quitting. for good. from now on. i am so sad. safari can drink beer like a mexican(no pun intended) and not get a beer gut, in fact this nigga has a deep six. and the fact that he can drink that shit is so gross. very nasty. well i am just so pumped and full of energy. oo gosh this new face stuff i use dries my face out, so bad that when i put my face moisturizer on it makes my whole face turn red and even like kind of itch or some shit. we watched something on internal combution. i think that could happen to a couple of people that i know. well i am through for now, and wil update this and make it make more sense later. but till then hollaaaaa ~tarA~ okay here is an update. i didnt do shit. but watch movies. well my boyfriend was amazing last night. or maybe i was shining so bright he caught some of the glimmer and put it to use. i woke up this morning body hurting so bad, everything hurts. i dont know if it was a bad night rest or that wrestling. it doesnt matter. my muscles are tight. i have c.d's that are dedicated to certain loves of my life. like brandy's "nothing" is dedicated of Carrvess and that simple day of bliss R. Kelly "T.P" is dedicated to Safari and great sex is made off of that c.d, finally R. Kelly's "chocolate factory" has sheinne's name all over it and all of the wonderful memories of bliss that he brought me. I wondewr what c.d aaron will have? i know even evvan had a song "i wish i wasnt" heather headly.dang music creates wonderful memories. well now that i have updated im out for the moment. tune in next time.