If there's one thing about being without a kid that I miss, its the possibility of a fresh start. Once you have a kid, you give that up. There are no more fresh starts for you, especially not if you're co-parenting with someone who actually puts effort in and wants to stay in the child's life. You no longer have the option to pack up your bags and go somewhere new for a new life and a fresh start.

Its not something that I ever thought about, but its on my mind a lot lately. I'm not happy with my life, and I feel like I need a fresh start. But I can't, because I have my son here and I'm staying with him. His mother is probably not leaving this city any time soon, so if I want to be in his life I can't either.

So here I sit, in my gilded cage.