So I just ran like 7 miles @ cross country in like an hour... it was painful, and by painful I mean totally awesome. But I also just read this entry that Hadas wrote about Nicole and I, for all I know she (Nicole that is) hates me, i hardly ever talk to her, but I do like her... maybe it's me that I'm fooling, maybe she does like me, I'll probably never know, but I do know one thing, I don't want to come between any of my friends if I don't have to. I know how Hadas feels, and I'm not going to be "stolen" from her, Hadas is quite possibly my best friend. I'm not going to let someone else change that, I know with Mackenzie and Ryan they're never separated and Mackenzie tends to put everyone "on the shelf" as Hadas would put it, because she does, but I'm not that type. I haven't had a girlfriend in what... 3, 4 years... I don't know what I'm doing, i'm still just a stinking kid. So I know that Hadas feels like I'm cutting myself off from her, but I'm really not, I'm not going to let it be like that with us, Hadas is rad, to put it quite simply. Why must I be a teenager in love? (is there anything that do-wop cannot teach us?... my friend, the answer to that question is no) But we're singing some cool love songs in Jazz choir that reflect the process. Good stuff. Anyways, I'm getting to know Saguaro's "gothic" kids really well, I love just being with them because they're all really accepting of me, and they think it's the strangest thing that a Christian kid of my stature is able to associate with "their type". But some other kids I know think that I'm stupid for not staying in one clique... i kinda like being called weird again, it's been a while. So be optimistic to everyone @ your school no matter how mean, they might just end up being one of your best friends. Give people chances, because you would want people to give you chances. And by all means, meet some new people every once in a while. Goodnight all.