I finally understand. I know what some of my favorite bands are talking about when they say that you have to lose everything just to see the truth sometimes. It feels like this week has just cut me open, layed me out, and left me dead. I lost this election, and I can safely say that it's no one's fault but my own. I was selfish, and I'm slowly, painfully, learning that. Thinking only for myself only brings me more and more trash and hard times in life. I guess it's better that I lost everything I had now, rather than later. And it's cool though, because I'm finally starting to learn about the man that God wants me to become, maybe that man wasn't meant to be the Student Body President... I was just foolish for denying and putting off that man that I'm supposed to become for so long. I need to be able to submit like this, I won't grow or learn otherwise. And as much as I want to complain and expose and slander it all over my daily routine... I can't. This one is my fault and I know it. I never can just say, "You know what David, you are wrong, and now you have to deal with that." I hate it though. I've lost the trust of so many people over this that I don't know if I'll ever be the same person I was to them. And the worst part it, I know that because they did some terrible, deliberate things to me, they want me to feel this way, and they're never going to let me forget that. That's another thing, they're not going to forgive me for it, and I'm going to have to live with that. I'm going to try and remain graceful about it though. I'm going to be below the people the people that I held most dear, and all I can hope is that they don't take too much advantage of that, even though I know they will. This next year won't be what I had planned it be, but in a way that's the best thing for me. I hate not having control... it's the worst feeling in the world, but I need to get used it.