I just finished making some random creations for my soon-to-be published website. I didn't realize how much goes into getting the simplest stuff up on the internet. It's a process. I'm noticing something else very depressing lately too. It's not my will in this world that matters. That's THE HARDEST thing I've had to deal with in my life. Even if I find the "perfect" someone and dedicate myself to them entriely with the purest of intentions, that may not be what God wants to happen. Which sucks, to be quite honest. It's kinda cool that he constantly changes things and keeps life interesting. It's hard to live with an agenda when you know that agenda won't always come to fruition. I need some things to happen in the future and if they don't, I don't know how I'll deal with myself, but I'm cool with that. I've established that I'm going to drop my expectations of becoming a huge rockstar musician or photographer and just working on becoming the most legitimate individual I can. I want to be disciplined and intelligible and sharp as tack when it comes to what I know is right. Hopefully that mindset will keep me myself as I go into college. I want to start actually writing songs too. I'm at the point in my guitar playing and singing where I can do so. I don't want to rush it though. I've never wanted to rush it. Maybe I'll never write a song. Geez.