I'm very worried, things aren't going well for me academically right now. I feel like I should tell my parents about it, but I really want to get my grade up as fast as possible. Things have happened in all of my academic classes that have given me a much lower grade than usual. I need time to raise it, but with my parents, they don't let me. When I try to explain all they do it get upset. I guess I can understand, but I just wish they'd let me earn my own grade without getting the way. I think they should still care, but it just seems like the midterm letter is the most important thing to them, even though it says nothing of the semester grade. Alright, that's it for grades. I have an XBOX now, it's good to have money because I can do things like buy an XBOX and Halo 2 (which (coincedentally) I ended up hosting 3 Halo 2 parties in the last 5 days). It's a great game, but I think some people are far too involved in it. It's just funny when you have someone like myself who comes along and stabs them with the energy sword when their "hide in the corner and snipe" tactic fails. On to choir (as usual). It's really, really crappy (for lack of better words). I had a coffee house rehearsal on Friday, and I think I was the sickest of choir I have been, so I just left. I don't really care about the consequences she puts on me anymore. At this point I genuinely think I'd be happier out of choir. I'd be able to actually do well on my school work. I think I will... or at least definitely think about it. All apologies aside, choir has become a huge joke. I once loved to sing with my peers, but just as fast, they became a conniving group of self-glorifying divas. And for what it's worth, I don't really care anymore... they one thing I'm trying my best to prioritize now is my school work... and if that means quitting choir, so be it. I don't what's gonna happen in days to come. And Hadas, I see what you're saying about the "Standoffish, hate the world" thing... I do feel like that right now.